Yesterday after getting my disappointing results ,went out with the guys . wemt to town first at Luckyplaza and they played pool . As usual I dont play because I dont know how to . Then, went to eat at beach road which was really far . it is at golden mile complex . the place is full of thailand stuff and rcently and I just watched thailand movies. some thailand movies are really nice . :) Ate thailand steamboat and bbq . yumm! After eating , we wanted to walk to suntec city but dont know the way . Pk wanted to go get the water bottle for his sis . And then , we went to two dead end routes at the highway . And it was dark .

It was like an adventure . Tired but fun . walking in the forests trying to find our way out and also to the suntec city. finally we find the correct highway route to suntec city. when we reached , all of us went to the toilet .. we were urgent hahaha . but it was 9+ already and when pk too out the waterbottle details , the shop is at suntec tower and closed at 8 . Lol wasted journey but we walk walk at suntec city. we went to arcade and then soon head home . a great day with themm to let me forget about my results and the unhappy stuff temporarily .






A picture to end off . piglet slp with me all night , love her, love pooh . i miss pooh so much

Long since I blogged,
Actually recently had the feel to blog or write a diary . And yesterday I started writing one , but I guess I wont keep a diary for long because Its hard to spend a lil time before I sleep when I always feel so lazy like a pig . BloggingZ Nahh. I hardly use computer so hi just trying to update this blog when no one is looking . reading my previous update before this is like a year ago ? I miss some things so much . but I feel that two years back , im still a happy girl . Now , i hardly even understand myself .

Yesterday received my result . the disappointment where some of us get when we alread knw 0% of distinction in our class. the 7 of us who worked so hard leave disappointment to our teachers, to ourselves, our parents . I dont think my parents even cared so I didnt update them about it .I already expected what grade Im getting and yes, I get a B3 merit again , thrice you know when i worked harder than the two times i took before . but i guess someone is even sadder than me . upset than me . Somehow i just feel the moe system or the teachers are just being bad to some of us . its a freaking new syllabus..

hey , Ive long lost you .But you're still one of the important person in my life although im the person you want to get rid in your life . I had a love hate kind of feeling . hate for some actions and words you said , the things tht you made me disappointed and some things you do... but love because we once had a past and its not like im still living in the past but , i wish im still as important . but like you said , important i wish lor , the 'I' in Important also dont have . Im sorry for being part of the fault for the result you get. You will definitely get at least a B3 if you retake . I believe , everyone think so too . I know it hits you hard. With this , Work even harder and spend your time wisely . Two months ago I already started praying for you ... and me. Now , still , I wish the second time you take a b3 will be a no problem to you or even be the 5th one to get an A ok ? I know you can , i know you believe too . the tears you drop , let many tears fall for you too . dont give up ok.

Yes , after getting the bad result , was walk our ways but then each quarrel I seem to find out another disappointment . Another disappointment I get from you . you said when you were drunk tht few weeks ago , you called me so late at night is because you did something wrong is because you were guilty . :'(
I was so worried about you that night when I know you drunk . But today you actually confess what you did actually . yes it hurts. and I didnt know some of the past that you hid from me . I now then know and I feel double the hurt . Its like Im being fooled being lied to . it just hurts so much . for serious, its impossible to forget you . but i can move on . even one day i get over you , i will still remember you because you leave me such pain memories . even your person just made a huge impact in me . I wish the plans or the rest of the future promises , you wont break them all . Because , I remember you.

Labels: A year had pass by, everything changes...

On 20/11/2011.
Hi today its 20/11/2011.
20112011. o.o and also my day. but today didnt had the birthday feel at first.
Was so afraid that today turn out badly but still, quite uh, quite satisfied. Dont expect more yea, just an ordinary day. :)

Prepare for this wordy update. :

Went out to meet Claire,Eugene, Quek and Vanna first and bused to cathay. When we reached there, Chien Qin and Jiawen came. We went to eat Astons for our so called late lunch at 3pm+ if im not wrong. The weather was bad and it started raining, we were the only ones sitting outside because of our large no. of people and its kinda hard for us to eat our meal as the rain keep on coming in and even our meals caught the rain. :( Moving seats outside , thinking that it will help but no... the rain was heavy. So chien qin went to ask to change our seat to inside. Quek finished his food first so he and jiawen went out jalan first. Walau jiawen never ate because she no money :(

So after our meals, we had a headache of where to eat the cake and how to eat the cake with no utensils. So went to find the two , and we sat beside the lift which is a so called a hidden area. So sat around and start to have our cake. cant finish the cake cus Vanna and Claire didnt want to eat. I rather kupping a bit in that cake too because i know recently many of us , all broke ! :(

ok.so slack around , so and so. left that area and take one round bus so that can have our seats! and bused back cck. Quek was so tired he slept till bp. I alighted at bpp because i went to find my family. Was still quite full from the astons and cake i ate earlier but still we settled at cafe cartel and have our meal. My order and sis's order waited for an hour . !! And dad was really pissed that he complained to them and he was also pissed cus of eating a cold rib . He likes something hot and he expected his meal to be hot but its cold...

ok. so went back home with a 100% filled tummy. At around 11pm? Had our fruit cake cut. ok here it is :





I love strawberries the most. :P



HERE!ok at last there are pictures coming. Haha didnt took any pic earlier on with my phone.. so yup.. sang birthdy song and the same process and here i am blogging.

Before -------------------------------> After.

Long since i blogged . Had my fail hair - cut . Its actually ok lah, only my cui fringe short lehh.
SEESEESEE ! NAHHH . ^
Haiiiiyo . :(

Today is my family day. Yesterday was quek's and my day . And The day before yesterday was Wz's day so i rmbed having celebration at korean buffet at timah which is great , soso late home .
Like reaching 1am like tht home . Scare the hell out of me due to watching 2359 that day. That movie not bad ahh! So quiet + not a single soul of course creepy!!

1,2,3,4 days to exam i havent study leh, Yijia strt alrdy what a hardworking girl. MUSTMUST start study tomr! Plus got to find job soon. Walau why so difficult to find. I really need $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$! I really want a job, why so hard finding one? -___-
Got to get thumbdrive tmr store piano sheets. i wanna go find sooooon. Today got 0330's piano sheet. hahahahahaha saw that and enlightened ^^

Recently,
Quarrels + Quarrels and more Quarrels. When can we stop quarreling? When can we stop walking our path to our dreams suffering and walk it together smoothly? As more and more conflicts which starts from you , my ego getting greater and more and more stubborn. Im really stubborn lah. But can you be not so ridiculous . Everyday a different guy name appear , and you liked speaking and bringing out the past. Ohh god, dont live in the past. Let it pass, be the past. We are living for now and the future. Stop being paranoid when we can actually dont need to quarrel. I cant stand how ridiculous you are adding on something that you assume and its not true at all. Yea i didnt show and only know how to say. but its all cus i dk how to express my true feelings all the time. you are only my one, and only one. Why cant you trust me alil? Stick and stick to ur thinking things wont work out. All yyou need is to trust. What more if there's no trust. im really sorry when i express or show you tht i dont care when actuallyi do. I express it wrongly. Im not what you wanted and i know. Hard to be something you want me to be. And its hard for you to be what i want you to be. Its either we give in to each other or we got to change.
Accept it or change. youknow. everything must be fair, my dear quek.
We are like having cold war now, you dont seem to care and i act like i dont . You dont wish to quarrel and so do i. and so, we didnt talk. but is this going to go on? So how? What to do what to do...I still remember our plans and what we want to do. A lot i remember.... I only want to sayy im sorry that im not what you want me to be and let you think that im putting in efforts that are not enough . Both of us the same type, stubborn and think tht we do best and the other one do little. Anyway i just wish to say, i dont want to give up even though sometimes i just show that i had enough. Tired yes tired, but im not giving up yet. and now, idk how, and wht to do alrdy. Yong yuan bu gou hao. :(

BLABLABLA> thts for today.

HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Back from 2day 2night cruise trip. Boring~
No choice but to go. Wrote on my memo when im bored so here goes:


Hoho wrote this on 1.21 am, on the 15th alrdy. I just sneeze, O_O
Im missing that idiot alrdy.
How i wish here got signal, and i got an itouch to entertain me.
Anyway today(14/10) evening 5+pm cabbed to harbourfront with Mum and both my sis.Ok board the cruise , first thing is to bathe because im so sweaty.
After bathed i went to have barbecue buffet. Oh nooooo, and i ate beef when im told not to. I only saw the word steak . the day before i also ate Pepperoni pizza and idk its beef.___. oh well, i ate le, no choice. :(


At 8.15pm, went to lido and watch show. Niceeeeeee, theme was Russia something. After watching , i went to cabin and slack a while with my cousins and family.

After that Supper again. HAHAHAH EATEATEAT. Only get to send two messages to thatt idiot and pooof , no signal.
Went to take my chinese homework in my cabin and went to cousin's cabin.
Watched the cat, korean horror show but its PG. The main actress is kim nana from cityhunter!
Quite scary but boring .... so i didnt get to do my work. and so tomorrow(15/10) i must do.
Hehe that picture above is my biaojie. She just put on braces!

Half way sis and i alrdy tired so went back to cabin. then wash up and here i am writing this review. This ship really a lot of aunties, from singapore, SO KIASU lah. KIA SU Singaporean expected. This picture is when im about to have my sleep !!!

Slept at 2am, Missmiss ~
Saturday, 15/10

Woke up at 8am, prepared and head for breakfast at the same place i had buffet. And then so bored $#%^($%^&*#$%^&*(^%$ ,
Aunt, BiaoJie and I went to watch the Dragon beard candy demostration at the Bellini till1130am. We went to look for sis and co but couldnt find them, so went to cousin's cabin and I do a bit of my chinese. Good girl ^v^

This is the balcony in the cabin. Hehe caught biao jie there...
We went to have Chinese lunch, while waiting for the food to arrive & im writing this. Ate esimated full and then head back to cabin. Stayed at the balcony^ chitchat with Biaojie and aunt. Then we saw a rainbow from the water spraying out of the ship!!


the weather supersuper hotlor. After that both sis and her group went swimming under the HOTHOT Sun. I went for teabreak and the sandwich sucks.
Lol went to their cabin again and do my chinese. tired alrdy right. then nap only few min and have western dinner.
Ugrh not that nice lo.


Side dish, salmon cheese. I wasted it because it tastes bad!!!


Main dish, the turkey~
Tasted soso. and lastly strawberry icecream for dessert which i didnt take photo of it.

Back to cabin and soon went to watch people dancing at the lobby area. Cousin and aunt went to gambling place to seesee while im not 18 yet cant go.Went to the highest floor enjoy the wind.
Next supper again, had nth to do , sis all pangseh only!! Then i went back cabin after eating. Ahh i wan to faster return to sg!

Went to cousin's cabin to watch funshion , hello ghost, she downloaded earlier.Its a nice show but watch half way, went back to cabin and K.O





My Biaomei.

Morning officially today woke at 7+am, with nobody in the room. Went to prepared and then head to have breakfast. Dim Sum for breakfast. Still not bad, and then return to sg!

This is koup from my sis's phone. She woke up early at 6+am with my biaomei to watch sunrise.
HAHA.

The waiting was long to get out of the ship. Irritating. So many aunties around . Got one kiasu, squeeze me and cut my queue. LOL. Went to have Bak kut teh nearby and home.

TATA. I havent touched my math. and think i want out ltr a while. Can or nottt? -____-

So long since i last update.
Toooo lazy.

Having prepartory programme this week.
Now like everyday spending time study!!!
Got to mug liaos, O's in less than a month.
Going to Yt mac ltr on to study !

Ok irritating brother coming to snatch com whenever i want to use. -____-
BYEEEEEE

Why do the days of mine got to be on and off?
its like :) , :( , :) , :(
Shall i pretend , pretend that i dont hurt at all?
Shall i act , act that when i smile, im happy?
Its pain.

When I am doing something important, and at the same time, you never left my mind, because that something involves you, and all i thought is you.
But sadly, I never crossed your mind, you never bother to think of how am i.
And in the 6hour, im still the loser.
Because at the end of the day, im still the one who cares more, who bothers, who feels hurt, and pain.
It seems like its controlled. But at times, i know i can choose . But still , still,
you never left my mind. Just that i dont wish to annoy you.
And here am i , feeling disappointed in you. So so disappointed.


Thanks.
Thanks.
Really thanks ... :')